Saturday, November 14, 2009

Raining

Well, watching spongebob now... yesterday i had a lot of fun with my school scouts and ru lang primary school's brownies.

We had craft work and did some baking in the kitchen. Very fun. The scouts people seems nice except for truman... the brownies also very cute... even though some were very rude... haha:)

Also have a lot chatting with friends on msn and phone and also on facebook.

I can't wait for the Studet leader camp on tuesday! It is going to be a blast and going to have lots of fun! I'm so excited my god!! I'm gonna be away for 3 days 2 nights, same as last year.. But i think there is going to be some change in the change if i not wrong...

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Overcast

Today i have been thinking a lot. I never expect him to call me. It really happen.

It happen around the afternoon. He called but i couldn't hear wad he said, it was very noisy around his surroundings. All i hear is some words saying wad dinner whatever thing. But he said he called the wrong number... I understand. Because the word 'mum' has the same letter as my name 'miao'. So i forget it.

Soon after that, i recieved a message from him:
Him: Hey, I need your help.
Me: Ok what help.
Him: I am involved in a relation. But i dunno how to express it. So can you help me
Me: Ok. Nvm just say it
Him: How to express
Me: Give me examples
Him: I love a girl in RGS
ME: And?
Him: Actually i love you
Me: So?
Him: I love you very much and it took me a long time for me to tell you
Me: But I thought you like tat RGS girl.
Him: That was just for fun. But i am serious bout you. Since primary 5 i have been noticing you but just got the courage to say now. So do you like me like how i like you now?
Me: Yes i do.

But you know apparently it wasn't him who sent me the messages. It was his friend who is using his phone and sms me. I knew that because his friend use his own phone to call and told me it was him who message me not 'him'.

After I hang up the phone, I felt so humiliated and embarrassed. I also felt like scolding f*** and CB. So I just wrote my feelings on my sticky note pad.

After a few minutes i decided to sent a sms to his friend phone number. I told him:
Look i dont know who you are. But you think this is somekind of a joke. Am i easy to joke with. Am i really related to him a lot? F*** you

When i said that to him, he never replied but instead it was him via his own phone. He called me a few times... nope a lot of times but i reject him. He continously called that i find irritating so i sent him an sms saying ' stop calling me'. Well he did stop, he just sent me back a message, saying:
Pls dun be sad. I will get back on my friend. I am sorry, I hate to see you in this state. Can we still be friends. Pls
I saw that but i never reply him. I just don't care about it anymore. He again tried to call me again, sometimes use his phone to call sometimes use his friend's phone to call. But i reject them all. Until a few hours, a phone number called, i cant tell what the number is so i answered it. But who knew it was him. So we chatted. He say that he is very sorry and will try to get back on his friends and told me not to be sad... When i talk to him i felt sad and wanted to cry, my voice started to change while i talked to him... i try my best to talk normally.
After we chatted, he sent me another message using the number he called me. Saying: Please message MY OTHER NUMBER. This is my friend's. Are you alright? I will get back at him., Still Friends right? I saw what you wrote. Do you mean it? Reply to my phone
This time i did reply him. I said: Look I don't want to talk about it. I feel humiliated and embarrassed ok.
After that he never replied. That's good. I don't wish to pursue it anymore. Might as well firgive and forget.
For so far this is the longest blog post i ever type. I hope a lot of people read thispost even though is embarrassing and shameful. I just want to share this post with everybody. Please do comment on this post if you got any comments.